I was at work yesterday, my first day back after surgery.  My expectations were that it would be a day of celebration (at least in my heart) and people would be happy to have me back (ha,ha, silly me to think it's all about me.) As soon as I walked in the door the heaviness hit me, people had long faces and whispered quietly among themselves.  Well, at first it was okay, I was glad to be back. As the day wore on the tireder (is that a word?) I felt and the more down I felt.  There had been issues with getting me back into the system as a permanent employee and it boiled down to one thing, my boss had not followed protocal and HR wasn't happy about that, so the delay. I realized that I was feeling that I was being punished for someone else's mistake.  I had a couple of errands to run in different parts of the hospital. I found myself walking the halls with a spirit of heaviness, wanting to avoid people, wanting to cry. This wasn't me.  I usually walk the halls singing songs of praise and greeting everyone along the way with a smile, with a hi, how are you?  I walked asking the Lord to help me receive His love that I may give it.  It just wasn't happening. I came back to work with an assignment, to touch this hospital with the love of God! To brighten it up with the Light that shines through me.  I was failing this assignment miserably.  I called my husband and he prayed for me and with me.  Soon after that I noticed that the spring was coming back into my step, the problems seemed to fall away and it was easier to show the Love that I was created to show.  Love one another, even when they are acting like children and playing their games. Love them no matter what.  I doesn't say that I have to like what they are doing, it says to love them, even as Christ loves me.  It's okay to feel disappointed and sad, but we need to get to the place where the Love of Jesus is living and breathing in us and overcoming all negative thoughts, actions and deeds.  Don't give life to the negative, choose life and love, no matter what is going on around you.  That is when they will truly know who we are and Who is in us!