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So, first things first, hi everyone! I know a couple of you noticed that I have been MIA for sometime now. I told those who asked that I am in the process of moving and my internet was down. Well, it was really a little more then that and I decided I should elaborate. Recently, life has been a bit difficult for me. I have some family issues. My mother is very physically and to an extent mentally ill (many of you knew this) and it changed her in a way I never could have imagined. She sort of decided that she and I are not on speaking terms which breaks my heart. So, my relationship with her is a huge hardship for me right now because I love my mom. Also, I am staying from house to house with friends and family because I am homeless now. I am having a huge amount of trouble finding a place to live. This has also been very difficult for me. I have a dog, and being my dog, he is homeless now, too. No one in my family was able to take him for me, so I was forced to leave him in the hands of a very kind stranger who volunteered. I tried to go visit my dad. He is in prison and I haven't been able to see him in two years and the only reason I was able to then is because it was before my grandma passed away and she wanted to see her son one last time. It was not a happy visit. I was excited to see him but I did not get in because someone from the prison visiting department had misinformed me that my passport would be accepted as identification. (It was not, only a birth certificate would be.) I am going to try again in a month. This is only the beginning of my current struggles. So, why am I sharing all this? Because these are my distractions. For the first few weeks after I became homeless, I didn't worry because I know that God will always take care of me, but because I was busy trying to address my situation, I put Him to the back of my mind. That isn't me at all! I know He is always number one. There were even a couple days when I didn't pray. How dare I ever have the nerve to say I am too busy or have to much going on in my life to pray to my Lord and Savior!? No wonder nothing is going right! I am letting the devil win! He has successfully made me a little less close to God. I am so sorry that I let things that I know are in His hands take me away from Him. I will never let this happen again and hope none of you do either. You are taken care of. Do not think you can care for yourself better then your Creator.
I missed you guys. :)
Your little sister in Christ, Cj |
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July 13, 2007 at 9:02pm |
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| This breaks my heart. I had no idea you were going through all of this. You did the right thing by letting us know that you need prayer. We have seen many miracles on this site. There are certainly times when it is very difficult to pray. That is when we need to call on our brothers and sisters to pray. If there is anything I can do to help you, please let me know. May the Lord bless you and keep you and make His face to shine upon you. Please keep us posted. You have become a dear friend on this site. We missed you!! |
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Sweet pea, we missed you too! What a burden you are bearing. Little sister, I'm praying for God to shine a light on a home for you. Cj, my heart goes out to you. Please keep us up-to-date.
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July 13, 2007 at 9:32pm |
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Thank you both. :) I am grateful beyond words for your prayers!
Love Cj |
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You are incredibly brave and beautiful. It really shines through with everything you are. As much I can only imagine the difficulty of it all, gosh, here you are encouraging us all!! My prayers are with you and your parents.. that the Lord would bring reconciliation, peace, and love to bind you back together someday. I know you know God will provide .. hold steadfast to Him, as we lift you up Cj. Your Sis,
Carol |
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| Chandra, we missed you a lot...you have a strong faith and it is being tested. You have always been willing to unashamedly speak out God's name...and you are doing it now. Praise God for your strength lady. You are a witness to many and He will use this time as a time to not only build you, but to show Himself to others. Watch and see what God will do...I am confident that in a few months you will have so many testimonies you won't be able to stop them...it may take some time, but He is doing a great work in you. Stay focused on Him, as I know you are trying. Whether you believe it or not, your post here was a geat encouragement to me. Thank you. |
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Cj |
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July 14, 2007 at 9:00am |
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Thank you Carebear and Voice. You guys have always encouraged me as well. Thank you.
Love Cj |
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| How are things this week Cj.. you are continually on my heart. |
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Cj |
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July 21, 2007 at 11:05pm |
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Things are okay. Thank you. I am still looking for a place and I'm sure I will find something soon. :)
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Hey there CJ,
Just wondering how things have been going. Wondering if you might write a blog to tells us what's been going on? Maybe? |
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