Hey ya'll

I have noticed a trend in my year and a half or so of Blogging on MyChurch. 
In times of utter despair and I am just venting God has heard and taken gracious compassion on me.
In times of great Triumph and I learn a new thing and I share that I am quickly tested there after....
I can hear the conversation in my head that The enemy and God have. 

Demon: She only loves you because you come through every time she screws up....
God: Go ahead and test her... You cant kill her but Go ahead She will still love me if you take everything away...
Demon: Ok I will but I bet she will ignore you and blame you for this....
God: She might think about it  but she will soon come to her senses She knows who she is to me....


Then no sooner then he leaves God's presence he is at my door with a special package...
Amy you have been laid off
Amy your husband will now abuse you
Amy things are never going to get better
Amy your daughter has been molested
Amy you are being Evicted
Amy....................... Insert next disaster here.....

The great triumphs of my life have always followed with Great Tragedy.... And I have found that the secret to becoming great in God's eyes is by sacrifice of flesh just like in the Old Testament....
 My Flesh desires to:
feel sorry for myself
quickly find a way to get back at other people
take vengeance
tell people what I think of them and where they can go
punish others
decide whats best for me
satisfy my flesh desires.......

Every single person My age and older has always wondered where my wisdom and maturity has come from....
Things that are plain as day for me are hard for others to grasp about God and This life....

Because of the great sorrow and the great trials that I have gone through the Rescuing that I have needed to have the faithfulness I needed to learn the Patience I needed to practice has been all mixed together to make something very sweet tasting and pleasing to the Lord.... The tremendous love the ample understanding... Is nothing that I could have EVER condgered up on my own..... God showed up at ever turn.... Every corner and fork in the road gave me the strength I needed for EVERY attack.... I dont fear attacks anymore I know they are coming. I fear when when they stop coming... That means for me I have become unadventurous in my walk.

The more I go out on a limb for Jesus the more Danger follows me and the ones I hold dear. .... Nothing is ever more than I can handle because I can do ALL things through CHRIST  who strengthens me......

But a lot of the attacks have happened when  I am bragging on the Lord.... and what He has done... The enemy advocates death most frequetnly (cause he tries with everyone) for the people who are damaging his kingdom..... And he tries to promote his people who help his cause....

But never the less in ever attack I get back on my feet bloody beaten and bruised
in every trap I may fall and break something and be stuck for a while but someone will come and rescue me
in every dark deep hole I find myself in a plan will be brought to mind to dig sideways till I get out.....
God will sustain and maintain us if we listen to Him and let Him speak and lead the way.....
That doesnt mean we are going to win every little battle... But every Battle we loose we will learn from and become better warriors for it...We will win the WAR in the End are rewarded Hansomly and assigned our titles and rank at the end....

We arent going to be rewarded on what a safe job we did staying out of trouble. We are going to be judged by what we did with our time on Earth with all the attacks that were hearld at us if we cowered or fought bravely through and helped our fellow man..... Check out the video It puts it all into prespective.