Just so you know, I read from Joyce Meyer's Devotions; "Starting Your Day Right" [also "Starting Your Night Right"] I found this verse this morning and thought a lot on what she wrote about it. At the beginning as of lately, I have been just thanking God and simply praising Him for all that I can .. and now that it has become a part of my routine, I am finding myself turning from just thanking Him, into praying for others, as well.
Now, I am no praying woman, especially when it comes for others. I tried a few times to pray for them and their needs but it is not in my field. I have other gifts instead. God have given me the ability to see and read people through His eyes.
I was also blessed with wisdom that I shared with others whenever they came talking to me for advice. I can tell about people by looking at them and knowing where they may have come from and where they are heading.
Lately, I have been such a counsel-like, I have been thinking about taking up courses to become a certified counselor for the deaf. God have been giving me the strong urges to reach out to others and listen, sharing my wisdom and advice, walking them through whatever they needed.
I have always been compliment by a few people at my intelligence and wisdom. It is funny how it always been for me. I can help people see what they cannot and hear what they cannot, listen for them and to them but yet, I hardly ever apply the wisdom and advices to my own.
But I feel that this area lack of support for the deaf. Especially in the field of counseling. It is not easy to find a counselor and that knows sign language. It is no fun having interpreter involved because normally, it is rather personal and very deep, that the interpreter is not always the same person coming to every appointment.
In my opinion, I wouldn't want want to have too many people knowing my personal problems or secrets. Therefore, it has been on my mind just how much this place needed a individual of sign language counselor. God is actually driving me insane with the urges to do His calling but there are too many obstacles. Yes, it is the same as making excuses but I have one obstacle that prevent me from being anything in this world; No High School Degree.
Yes, I am a drop out. Yes, I have applied to GED a few times in my life and every time I got so close, either I got scared or chickened out, I never finished. Instead, I stepped back and quit again.
I know that if God really want me to be who He has planned me to be, that there will be a way. All I would have to do is obey and follow through. Maybe I can be counselor but I cannot be legal in that area. I could get in trouble and I won't get paid.
I don't know just how many people out there consider me as a friend. I don't know just how many people see me as a friend. I don't know just what people see me as, but I have been told a few times only just how smart I am for a drop out.
I am still trying to figure out what to do with this obstacle in my life. Now that I am juggling three children, that is a new experience for me right now. And though they are still pretty young, now is perfect time to get myself going before they become involve with the activities that will take my time.
God have a calling for me, I know just at least a few of them what they are that He wants out of me. But I don't know just HOW to complete. How to interact with those callings.
Do you know your calling and what do you do with it?