I had this website I made for my Web design class. It's the first one I ever did. I had decided to write my testimony for my classmates to read. Then a while later I ended up writing about the end of my marriage.
I was reminiscing about it today when I left the Singles Ministry at church tonight. These events should have crushed me like they did the first time I left him. But when I reflected on it I can see that all it did was fuel my need for God.... All it did was prove once again that Jesus was my everything and all I really needed.
You can read the whole thing on my school website. But here is the page of my Marriage. Just one chapter of a long love story of me and Jesus....




About The Amy pg. 2

Some stats to appease your interest & a whopper of a bio:
Age: 24 as of 2008
Marital Status: Divorce process
Length of current marital status: 5 years

Age when Amy married: 19 years old
No. of children who inhabited Amy for 9 months: 1
Name of child: Lana
No. of years wondering aimlessly through life: Age 10 yrs old - 16 yrs old - 19yrs old
Day of Salvation: Easter 2004

I would love to sit here and tell you how hunky dory my life has been since I gave my life over to God.

There has been polar opposite moments of that the whole time. I would love to tell you that I have had it easy and that I have received everything I have ever asked for but I haven't.

What I can tell you is that I have been content the whole time. I have learned and matured like I couldn't even imagine I would. I have been rich in what matters family, love, friendship, health, wisdom.

My marriage has is going to be terminated. I am not happy about that. I didn't ask for that, and I am not going to try and figure it all out....

I tried I was not going to divorce under any circumstance. He hit me and I was still willing to separate till he got help but he never did. After 7 months after the last time he hit me we were almost done with the divorce I let him and I give it another shot. But he just had not changed or had a desire to change. My sister had a speaker at one of her youth for Christ meetings and the speaker was talking about violence in a relationship. Symptoms of an abusive relationship. The list was two columns and a whole page and everything that was written on it was a typical day in the life of Amy Urena.

I found myself hiding notes here and there of in-case I am dead find my husband and tell my daughter that I loved her so much. I brings me to tears every-time I even dare to think that I wouldn't see my daughter grow up into the beautiful woman she is going to be.

That demon that my husband entertained in his head was going to try and take that away from me. So October 31st Halloween 2007 I gave my husband an ultimatum. Either he leaves the house or I do because he cannot abuse/control me anymore. It was a Wed night and I was going to go to church and he decided to go with me and he got up and answered the alter call that night as he had done countless times before. I broke down in tears as he walked away to be prayed for I praised God and hoped for the best that this time it was going to be it.

It wassnt............ It was for a few days but it didn't last. So I told him a few months later that if he didnt leave that night that he was not going to find me home when he came home from work one of these days.

I was serious. And he went to go stay with his mother. We still carried on as a normal couple just who did not stay in the same house. I was praying for guidance the whole time I had no idea what to do. I wasn't hearing anything from God. All I felt like was wait..... I was wondering what am I waiting for is he going to change? Are you going to teach him? What am I waiting for? Wait was all I ever got.......

It was great. No fighting, no controlling..... Till one day I dropped him off at work and he gives me the cell phone and tells me not to answer it because he has some side jobs lined up and I always forget to give him the messages so just let the phone go to voicemail. So I go about my day I think I had an interview or something and I go to eat lunch and there is a text message coming from the phone number I had not been answering from. The text said. I cant wait till you get out of work baby txt me when you get out. and I said oh maybe it is a spam txt so I txted back and said who is this? and she wrote back no who is this. So I called the number....

I said, hello did someone just txt this number?

And she said. Yeah

I said who were you trying to talk to?

She said Roberto <--- Changed his name

I said Oh do you want me to give him a message or something

I said who are you

She said EVE <---- Changed her name

I said Eve how do you know Roberto

She said who are you?

I said I am Roberto's wife......

She was shocked. I was too! but I kept my cool, normally or the old Amy would have started screaming and calling her all kinds of profane NAMES threatened her all kinds of ugly but instead I had compassion for her for she knew not what she was doing.......

I preceded to tell her all about my "wonderful" marriage and warn her. she didn't believe me and wanted to know why (if we were still together) was he living at his moms and whatnot but at the end I just said my peace and asked her if she needed prayer for anything and she awkwardly said no and I thanked her for her time. After that conversation I finally knew exactly what way I was supposed to go.

I finally had peace about the direction I was to go. And I heard God say now you can divorce. This was not the first time he had gone outside the marriage so don't say oh that was just one time. I am completely free from the oppression of the enemy (not my husband) the guy behind him whispering all kinds of lies to him. There is no strong hold over me anymore. I no longer dread coming home. I am free!!!!!!!!! I am being provided for by my Lord. He has provided food, clothing, money, a roof over my head, transportation everything I need.

My husband on the other hand has lost everything. He is sitting in a psychiatric ward (when I wrote this a year ago) in the hospital. His job, his car, a place to live. Not by my doing that is just what is happening right now. I didn' t wish anything bad on him. God can take vengeance way better than I ever could.

I forgive him (my ex-husband) I would even go as far as to say that I love the guy but not like a husband like a brother. God has been so good to me through the whole time. Everywhere I went I was taken care of that's what never ceases to amaze me about HIM! How wonderful and mindful He is of us His Children.

The Lord Most High is Good!