I woke up this morning with a though on my mind, which I have decided to share with those I consider now my Spiritual family.  I take this site as a tool to express myself in the way I see life as the days unfold.  Each day brings for me different venues.  Yesterday, for instance, I spent the day on this site reading blogs and comments.  I cried and laughed and had a wonderful time.  I was invited to go to a picnic and decided to remain at home by myself because I was crying so hard at times, the tears just would not stop for me. Many times my tears are prayers and I allow the Holy Spirit to use me to His full advantage. (my mother's nickname for me was mother's sorrow, because all I did was cry) and perhaps for this reason I was born to bear a burden for the nations.  I see and discern things in the Spiritual realm and at times try to express myself to share my thoughts with others and found out that not many welcome my thoughts.  Therefore, it is at times very difficult for me to relate to others, even my own family, and I have been trying to discern when I should share, what I should share and how I should share it.  I have so much going on in my mind at times, that sometimes I feel like I would just burst open.  Through blogs and comments on this site (like no other site I have ever been on), I have been learning from others and is able to free up some of my thoughts.  Perhaps at times, I may not seem very loving in my responses because I am very passionate about that particular issue and see it differently from a defensive position in the Spiritual realm and want others to see it like I see it, because it could be a warning for us all or just that individual, and for that I must stop here and ask forgiveness from anyone I have offended.  I am still in the learning process and thank God for people like Joey who will chastise when they need to in a loving way.

There were times when I had also gotten discouraged because of not receiving comments to my blogs,(the reading score will tell me how many people read the blog), and felt I should just pack up and leave. I am sure many of you felt this way too at times.   Yesterday was such a day for me. However, as I reflected on the many true friends that I have met on this site and no matter what we are all going through, we have seemed to come away loving each other, at least from my end. I have not personally met any of you and one day I would like to meet all of you in one setting. We may have to hire a whole cruise ship (smile).  I know the body of Christ will go through persecution, and most of that persecution comes from our own families, which can be excruciatingly painful, and sometimes this site is used as an outlet to let out frustrations, and I have seen such love in comments (some of the love given was tough (smile)  but it was agape' love anyway.  I believe that is what true Christianity is all about.  Being free to express oneself and being surrounded with true believers who will not leave you out in the fray.  I have met many physically sick and dying Spiritual warriors on this battlefield and we need to reach out and bind up their wounds.  I have been put in seclusion by the Holy Spirit for many years and have no physical friends that I can reach out to when I am in the battles, which is okay, because I have learned that I cannot hear the instructions from my master unless I am in total quiet, and in this period of the era we are living in, this is totally needed.  I am sure many of you have found yourself in this situation.  Father wants our full attention.  THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT!  This time of the era is not Church as usual as I am sure many of you have already found out.  There has been a shifting and separating and you must hear from the Holy Spirit, otherwise you may get caught up in the Frey of unrighteousness that when the alarm is sounded, and the real shaking begins,  it will first begin at the houses of God.  Not one individual will be exempt.  This site is being used as a training ground.  I call it Spiritual boot-camp.  I kept hearing the cliche' (if you can't cook, get out of the kitchen). I heard this over and over in my mind yesterday, and knew that Father was speaking about what is going on the the Spirit.  I know something is about to explode (He does not give me everything at once).  I have had dreams and visions and it is not pretty.  Everyone who is not filled with the Holy Spirit will not be able to contain.  I am only saying this to let you all know how I stand in my Spiritual walk and what I think about this site.  I am very grateful for those who operate behind this great site and pray that Father will give them the wisdom and Spiritual incite to look way beyond cyberspace and into the throne room for instructions directly from the Creator of this beautiful universe.

With lots of loving thoughts to all myChurch friends.
Sister Marcia