I woke up this morning having made the decision to change my normal routine the night before. Normally on Tuesday mornings I go to a men's prayer breakfast at church. Sometimes routine is good, but sometimes routine is routine.
So I awoke later than normal for Tuesday and was laying in bed thinking of what I should do and what I shouldn't do. I've been struggling to find time for quiet time with God. And this was a perfect time to do it. Except I didn't. I turned instead to e-mail and found out that my company was in the process of being acquired. And my mind started going. And going... I had started to consider my job as a ministry I thought. As a member of the laity, this was one of the places where I was supposed to let my life shine and with "business as usual", it gave me a place to go where I could reach out to unbelievers in what felt like a "stable" environment. This announcement rocked the boat of certainty though.
I grabbed one of the devotionals I've been trying to work through and ran into this for today's verse
3:5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not rely on your own insight. 3:6 In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.
I shared the business news with my wife and headed out the door to work and quickly found I wasn't the only one unsure what the direction with work was going to be. Could be we're all out the door when the acquisition is finalized.
As I sit here this evening, that hasn't changed. However during the day I went back to a bunch of semons and spent time with God, and was reminded that while life may assault me, my future is sure.
Life is a crazy thing. We don't know how long we've got to live, we don't know exactly what tomorrow will bring for us (personally). How does anyone survive without the knowledge of what God has done for us?