I first want to say thank you for listening... or reading... lol The thing is I really do love my brother... over the years, well really our whole lives, we never had a real relationship. We grew up in a broken home and God has graciously given us a great Step-dad that Loves God to help lead us in the right way... But despite that we as children were full of anger, un-forgiveness, bitterness, and hate, among many other things... So even after salvation there is sanctification and unfortunately those things just don't disappear over night. It takes time and effort to bring these things before the Lord and let Him change you, and make you more like Jesus... Last night was about the last straw with my little brother and me. After trying to discuss and plead with him to respect me and my affairs(stay out of my business) he replied with " I don't care about you anymore. I just don't care." among many other things. Out of anger and I guess hurt I replied with, "Then we're through... I can serve God without you! I just want to be left alone!" but after the fact I went down to my room and I couldn't help but to pray for him and forgive him... I am not saying I am something great by any means, but this is what God has worked in me over the years....I don't want to lose my brother! even if we are both serving God and living a Holy life, and have forgiven each-other, I don't want to have to build something 10 or 20 years from now that we could have built today!
The Lord pressed it upon my heart to write him a letter not of apology but repentance. I had to repent to my brother for not being what he needed me to be all of these years... I had to repent to him for ever disrespecting him and or belittling him in my eyes and other's. Realizing that even at a young age these things are SIN and they are what separates us from a Holy God and ruins the future of families... Even though we had a rotten deal growing up we are at the age and knowledge to understand sin, which makes it our responsibility to repent and move forward In the knowledge and saving grace of Jesus Christ... I pray and I ask you to please pray that through that letter and my implimenting what God showed me to do through prayer that my relationship wih my brother begins... Thank you so much and God Bless!

4:7 If thou doest well, shalt thou not be accepted? and if thou doest not well, sin lieth at the door. And unto thee [shall be] his desire, and thou shalt rule over him.