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Sick of the the medical world. Sick of tests and sick of hospitals.
I quit.
They messed the test up. Didn't take enough images as the radiation was moving through my kidneys.
Dr couldn't give me the results as he couldn't tell for sure.
The official result is "inconclusive"
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So all this test prep. All the bs I went through. The exhaustion. The feeling sick. The cramps. For nothing.
Because they messed it up.
Should have been taking images in 5-7 min intervals not 15 min intervals. They missed the radioactive dye moving through the crucial point.
what they can tell me is that the Left Kidney is no better than it was before the re constructive surgery. That its messed up and slow and always will be. What they want to know is... is it draining? or is it holding? Holding is bad. Draining... is good. But they fear from what they DID see and from what I can tell them based on what I feel. That its holding.
Next step from here?
Waiting two months for another test to be scheduled to try again. Not the same one tho... (thank god) but a different one...
I'm exhausted. I quit. |
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| August 12, 2009 |
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Don't quit! Hang in there. It is so hard but God wants you to put it all on his shoulders and lean on Him. Casting all your cares on Him for he cares for you. This is hard for some of us to do because that means, we must let go and let God and trust in Him completely. It sounds easy, until we have to do it. I've been there so these are not pat words but they are very hard to implement, that much I do know...and as you walk through one test and trial, you get to another level, and another. God is perfecting and refining us. It will get better. Take some deep breathes when things get too hard and then say a prayer and give God praise. "The Bible says that God inhabits in the praises of His people (Psalms 22:3). In other words, God “dwells” in the atmosphere of His praise. This means that praise is not merely a reaction from coming into His presence - Praise is a vehicle of faith which brings us into the presence and power of God! Praise and worship is the “gate-pass” which allows us to enter the sacredness of His glory. The psalmist writes, “Enter into his gates with thanksgiving, and into his courts with praise: be thankful unto him, and bless his name” (Psalms 100:4)." http://www.victorious.org/praise.htm
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| August 12, 2009 |
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| Lord I ask that You would be with Jade in her frustration and grant that Your peace will overcome her. Lord as she has to have return tests I pray that the doctors will get a good picture this time Amen |
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| (((((((((Jade gets a big hug))))))))) hang in there, God has His hand on you. |
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| Jade, I'm so sorry. It must be discouraging. Try to remember they're just people, and as frustrating as it is, people goof. Not good to be the recipient of the goof, though. I'll pray for you. |
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| August 12, 2009 |
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| It seems from your description, your kidney has a lot of back-pressure. In other world, its retaining fluid - and only works when it has to, not when it needs to. Well hello, I've have the same problem since birth. So from me to you, hang on in there, OK? |
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| August 12, 2009 |
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| Don't give up - God will work it out..... |
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NEVER GIVE UP...........IT WILL WORK OUT!!!! |
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| August 12, 2009 |
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| Sometimes when we want most to quit is when God steps in to work in surprising ways! We are praying for you. |
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Amen, Joyful. Father, help us to let go of trying to keep things together. Help us to give everything to you. |
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| August 12, 2009 |
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| Jade, I pray God will restore you completely. I pray His peace will reign. I pray God will send you supportive friends. In the name of Jesus. |
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Jade dont give up, I know what your going through, my wife has been through it all with her kidneys. She had many times where she felt the same way, believe me it will work out.
Praying for you!
Brian |
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Thank you everyone... I have no words. But your support means so much right now. |
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Trust God. Quiting is not an option and we are praying for and with you. If you don't have strenght lean on us. BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD, I HAVE NEVER SEEN THE RIGHTEOUS FORSAKEN. It's ok if you are quiet. Just feel the ((( HUGS ))) |
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I am overwhelmed and touched by the amount of support I am receiving... God Bless you all... |
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sis, I'm sorry you had to go through all of that for "nothing". But I pray that the Lord will heal you body, soul and spirit, b/c of course what them doctors can't do, God can, and I wanna see that happen for you. xoxo |
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wow, I sure know your heart on this. i had pain for so long they said was depression over my son's death but i told them i had pain when happy too. they didn't believe me so i fired the doctor and hired another, they did some surgery and it was not better and so had more tests, had moved away and they did hysterectomy and it did not seem like it could ever get better and today i feel pretty good as far as that particular pain, but it took tests and speculation that i was mentally unbalanced and
well, i am praying and believing for you |
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Jade, my sweet sister in Christ, hang in there and never give up! We are praying for you. Know that Jesus is with you through it all, He will never leave you nor desert you. Cling tightly to Him and He will see you through. Big hugs to you baby girl!!
Patty M |
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| August 13, 2009 |
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Thank you once again everyone for your comments and prayers. I spent most of today picking my self up, dusting myself off and reminding myself that I can't quit. Because how useful would that be? Blessings to you all... you have been a great source of strength and compassion to me. |
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You shouldn't be surprised at the support. So many of us are pulling for you. |
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praying.... |
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| August 13, 2009 |
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Dearest Jade:
It's me so, of course, I'm going to tell you something different than everyone else. :-) I agree with you dear, please do give up! Give up on trying to be strong and trying to gear yourself up. Just fall back into His arms dear girl!
It sort of bring tears to my eyes to think about how much He has suffered; how his flesh was torn from his body with that scouraging...not for anything that He had ever done wrong, but for us! Wow...that's just mind boggling!
All that comes to mind dear sister is that when heaven and earth were searched to find just one that was worthy...there wasn't even one found...no, not one; except the Lamb of God! Jade, He is absolutely worthy to received the reward for his suffering! Don't you think? He's worthy to receive the healing that He was scourged for...your healing!
It sort of makes it a slap in his face when the enemy talks us into thinking that it's about our worthiness. We get so silly, begging and pleading for God to do what He has already done in his dear Son. He laid upon him the sin of the world; and his dear Son was scouraged...for us. The punishment for our peace was laid upon him. So just do give up sis, and just receive from Father what cost his Son so very much! :-)
Grace and peace be to you Jade from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ!
Your brother in Him,
Craig |
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| August 13, 2009 |
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| ahhh what a wonderful concept dear brother. what a wonderful concept.... |
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| August 14, 2009 |
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Jade,
I love Craigs advice, and it is not a concept it is scriptural fact.
Listen I have a healing testimony posted on my blog feel free to read, warning it is long....
I had an incurable disease and came off chemo and 13 meds....I think we all have blocks to recieving the healing scripture tells us Christ already obtained for us...when we find ourselves sick we need to investigate what our blocks are. Jade I'll pray for you in this journey...email me and ask any questions you would like....In Him, Lori |
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