At around midnight on July 29th, my boyfriend of six months who I loved very much broke up with me. When I awoke the next morning, my mom came into my room, crying hysterically, to tell me that my grandmother had passed away about an hour before.

I know that life is not always easy or fair. But after this happened, I found myself question God’s tactics. Why would a just and loving God cause me so much pain? Why would he make me suffer so much?

I have found the problem in my logic. God is not the one who is causing my suffering and my pain. It is instead Satan trying to get me to have a crisis of faith.

II Corinthians 12:7 says “And lest I should be exalted above measure by the abundance of the revelations, a thorn in the flesh was given to me, a messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I be exalted above measure.”

Satan will stop at nothing to turn people away from God. He wants people to blame God for their suffering and their pain, even though God is the one who can take it all away. Sure, it might not be an overnight thing, but GOD WILL BRING HAPPINESS FROM YOUR PAIN. I know, I’m probably betraying my emo roots there, but it’s true.

“For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong,” is the advice given in II Corinthians 12:10. The strongest way we can show our faith and love to God is to continue to love Him, worship Him and live for Him when our troubles continue to mount.

I have to trust God and love him even though terrible things have been thrown my way. Although I may stumble, I know that He is with me and will guide me down a road of immense happiness and love.