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August 18, 2007 at 4:51pm

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I hate to whine but sometimes I I really struggle with loneliness, I got up this morning and said my prayers focussing on dying to self, and spent some time meditating on the idea that we are asked to pick up our cross dayly.

I really wasn't doing well with being home alone, so I stopped by my home church where they were having a seminar for married couples so I swung by the local library where there was some kind of an activity for you guessed it couples.

I have taken a considerable amount of moral inventories concerning my behaviors, and I'm willing to own my own part of a previous marriage that didn't work. However I have to admit, when it comes to women I concistently make bad choices.

For a living I have a job as a tech. in an addictions house full of guys who consistently remind me that no woman would want me, of course if I show any emotion during this bombardment, then they know where to focus there attack. I realize a lot of this BLOG would be better served as a journal entry, but I gotta be transparent somewhere. I know this isn't very uplifting. I know in todays society we are bombarded with sexual inuendo.

But I can't help but thinking that the Bible is full of warnings concerning sexual immorality. After all the belief that my body is a temple of the Holy Spirit is why I quit smoking, why I gave up dope. But I think I need to be more honest with prayers. More honest with fellow christians, but I'm noticing that even though a lot of people are in church on sunday, don't mean that we've compromised a little to much.

I know in my heart of hearts that I'm a child of the king but at the moment I'm really fighting to keep that identity, as I'm feeling more like a 50 year old that nobady would really want so if anyone is willing to pray for me I'd sure apreciate it. I realize there's a lot of selfishness in all of this, but what can I say. I hope my next blog will be more upliftin, I spent a fair amount of time today meditating on the full armor of God but I feel like it's been scuffed up a little bit today.

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Kathy

August 18, 2007 at 5:07pm

I prayed for you as I read your blog, Dave. Being single carries its unique set of struggles, just as being married does. Both have their advantages, and both bring their down moments. God has His hand on your life, Dave. He has rescued you, and He loves you. I pray for your peace and comfort. (Have you tried on-line Christian match-maker sites? Those can be fun, if you don't look at everyone as a potential relationship. Be up front and honest about who you are, and see who shows an interest.)

hopefienddave

August 18, 2007 at 5:18pm

I appreciate the prayer, and the sentiments.

Pastor Tim

August 18, 2007 at 5:40pm

Dave, you are definitely in my prayers. !

hopefienddave

August 18, 2007 at 6:44pm

Thanks yall, sometimes I'll go for days trying to be what I'm supposed to be, feel what I'm supposed to feel and then occasionally get overwhelmed. The guys at the house I work at are generally fresh out of jail, and always looking for a chink in the armor of what they percieve as a turn key. Sometimes they succees I know God has a plan for all of us that love him and that we always get what we need to get thru. Sometimes I'm just closer to crumbling than others.

R

August 19, 2007 at 9:19am

Hey Dave,

It makes me think of taking inventory.

An interesting exercise that my wife did the other day with her womens group. Each of them took a sheet of paper and wrote on it what they appreciated about one person in the group, then they would pass it to the next person to add their thoughts. At the end, each person had a paper with a comment from every member of the group toward themselves. This was a positive re-enforcement exercise, and left every member feeling a bit more worthwhile. - So, when my wife got home and shared this with me, I thought, "how often have I made such a list/comment to God? What and how much, would I write on the paper to Him?

A bit of inventory here. Has God really satisfied me, do I have a long list of things to say positively about Him... or is my list rather short?

Sometimes we cannot answer this truthfully while leaning or longing for other things. Please don't take this as finger pointing or condemnation toward yourself... it is my reaction/addition to what you've shared and the question is more to myself than anyone else. Honestly.

R...

hopefienddave

August 19, 2007 at 3:22pm

Good point R a list of blessings is always a good idea. Sometimes with myself when I become to focused on my shortcomings I can back myself in a corner as well.

Thanks one and all for prayers and comments, today is definately a new day.

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