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As most of you know I am in my last year studying Psychology. So I basically sit around all day reading about crazy people and the various combinations of chemicals that you can give them to make them not so crazy.
Last night (after the WORST week of my life) I was thinking that being human is a LOT like having a mental disease. (Hang with me for a minute)
Think about it.....Can you imagine what it would be like to wake up every morning with Schitzophrenia, or Multiple Personality Disorder, or even Clinical Depression...how hard it must be to want to be something different than what you are...and constantly have to battle with who you are and who you want to be.
I wake up every morning wanting nothing more than to be in the center of God's will....and usually 3 minutes later something happens and my humanity takes over....inhibiting me from truly being who I am supposed to be.
It's a CONSTANT battle...and at times (like last week) I get exhausted!!! I get a LOT like many of the patients I hear so much about (stop laughing!! I know I'm a bit off, but I'm NOT crazy!!)
Anywho...It's pretty commen for the mentally ill to reach such a 'high' in their lives that they feel they don't need their meds anymore. BUT there can also be an oppisite effect. They get to such a low that they think "what's the point" and again stop taking their meds.
Last week was that time for me.....I've had problems with mild to severe depression sine I had Camber (four years ago). Sometimes it gets so bad that all I want to do is lay in the bed all day long and sleep....it's at times like that that I stop taking my 'meds.' NO...I'm not taking anything actually for depression...but my bible reading slacks off, I stop having the desire to study, I don't pray...and I start to feel hopeless. Then satan starts to kick my butt.
So....after all my rambling there is actually a point!!
There's not a pill that I can take to keep my humanity at bay........but I can keep my eyes on Jesus...even when I don't feel like it.
He's the great physician...and can heal any hurt that I have, physical, spiritual, emotional.
He's my comforter...he wraps his arms around me even when I think no one is there.
He's my Savior.....He has rescued me from peril that I will have never known, because I was following Him. |
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