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I want to thank every one who takes time to pray for there brothers and sisters who post a prayer request. I always believe god for answers.
11:1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, and the sign that the things not seen are true.
My buddy Dana declined going to church with me at the last minute. I hope everyone remembers him in your prayers. I have been sponsoring him for quite some time in NA, I told him several weeks ago that he had an open invitation at the cross any time he needed it. I really didn't have high hopes for this fellow and I had extended the same invitation to all the guys I've sponsored over the years.
I would have thought Dana would have been the last to take me up on it, as he scurried from one lady to the next to try and find happiness. He had called me last Monday saying simply this "I wanta go to church with you on monday I've had it."
I remembered the "I've had it" feeling. I remember it twice actually first I had to beat the junk. I sat at meeting after meeting anouncing that I was an addict. (could I have been speaking a curse over myself?)
I've been feeling like I'm more and more called out of NA. and even made an altar call for some prayer concerning this. I've been more and more concerned about how I speak about myself and others, and asking for THE HOLY GHOST's guidance in this matter. I do use my prayer tongue often in prayer. But I've been more conscience about refering to myself as stupid or ugly.
I haven't let myself talk about others this way for quite sometime, but I reserved directing sarcasm towards myself. Thinking I needed to make fun of some one so why not myself. But I've decided to leave my sense of humor in Christ's hands.
An on line friend of mine posted a blog concerning the gifts of the spirit which I highley reccomend. http://www.mychurch.org/blog/52687/SPECIFIC-GIFTS-OF-THE-SPIRIT One of the gifts of the spirit that I'm hesitant to pray for is the gift of celebacy without lust. Male ego being what it is, and working in an addictions house with a bunch of males, who are constantly bragging about there sexual exploits. I decided to leave my desires at the cross.
I'm a little scared, as I'm afraid that I can look forward to a lonely rest of my life. But I have a long track record when it concerns women. I just don't make good decisions in the flesh. I'm fearfull that coming to christ at a late age that I've blown a lot of oportunities to any kind of a happily ever after. But be that as it may I can live with it I'll have to leave that under the heading of I made my bed I have to sleep in it.
One of my very best friends is a lady who struggles with many of the same things I do and it's good to no that men and women aren't nearly as different as I thought we were. A lot of these things wouldn't be to important if we were to hear the last trumpet sound.
I went to a healing session at my home church tuesday, and let go of a lot of curses some generational, some that I just opened the door to while I was worshipping heroine. I've built a lot of defenses over the years and I reckon it,s time to let go.
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| August 26, 2007 |
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| Hey, Dave. I'll be praying for you and for Dana. When we are honest about where we are and where our struggle is - not letting pride keep our mouth shut when we need to be asking for help - Satan is stripped of power. He is the one who likes to keep us quiet about this stuff; then he can continue to feed us his lies about ourselves, our lives, and our walk with God, trying to convince us that we're hopeless and that our situation is helpless. I, too, have renounced generational curses and know where you're coming from on that one. Hang onto Truth! You know what it is!! |
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| August 26, 2007 |
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| Thanks Jen, thanks shannon |
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| August 27, 2007 |
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| Dave, lust only fled my life after I threw myself into the Lord's arms. Sounds strange, since he's invisible and spirit and all, but I started filling my brain, my eyes, and my time with him, and now self examinations reveal a guy who thinks about God too much to lust. How about that! Lust is habitual, and bad habits can be replaced by good ones. May God continue to bless you as you strive to be filled by his Spirit! ~mike |
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| August 27, 2007 |
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| I'm gonna have to work on that, I got up this morning and said my prayers and went in search of fellowship, I was kind of hoping the prayer room at church was open but it wasn't. I may be struggling but I'm doing better than yesterday. Right now I'm not staying still to long for some reason, I think I need to break through and kick prayer to the next level. As well as the people I'm associating with. I just know lust has been a major hinderance to my walk. I also know it's something my male EGO don't like giving up. |
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