God reached into the depths of hell and pulled me out. I was so lost and confused about true happiness. God showed me what was right, and true, and honest. He gave me opportunites to trust him and come to him, but I refused time and again to relinquish what hold I thought I had on my life. I wasn't just living in sin, I was totally consumed by it. So much so that I lost a lot of things and people in my life that was very dear to me. But, there's always a "but" when God is working in your life. Have you noticed that? Anyway, God opened my eyes to my sin and guilt and shame and I saw what was to be for me. Death and damnation. God loved me enough to give me strength to admit my faults. He loves me enough now to give me the opportunity to say "Thank you."