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| The Baggage series has been good I think. The emotional baggage sermon today hit close to home. I feel that I have experienced all three throughout my life before becoming a Christian. Through my teenage years, I wanted to be and feel accepted by this group I knew did the wrong things. My life spiralled out of control as I sinned from one thing to the next. From smoking, to binge drinking, to drugs and trying to find love through sex. I wanted to be accepted, loved and wanted. It wasn't that I wasn't loved at home but I wanted to feel acceptance and I made the wrong choices in my life. I can identify with the woman at the well because that was me. I looked for what I thought was how you got loved but that was the world's way. I was insecure and I had a low self esteem and image problem. I looked for validation, and I too didn't feel complete unless I had someone in my life to love me. I had boyfriend after boyfriemd. But sabotaged every relationship because I felt they didn't really love me, so why not mess the relationship up before they did it to me. When I became a Christian, I know that Jesus wanted me to be single so that He could do a work in my life. So that I could see that my worth was not found in who loved me or accepted me. He let this happen so that I could know that I was worthy, that I was accepted by Him(the authorithy over all, the first and the last and the one who truly cares) and that I was good enough. I am forgiven, I have been redeemed, I have His seal of ownership on me. I do fit in, I am good enough and I am worthy. So if the Son sets Shelly free, she will be free indeed! On a computer pop ups get blocked, when negative words or thoughts come into my mind, I need to remember that Jesus is my blocker to these negative pop ups. Thank you Jesus for showing me that I am wanted and accepted by You. |
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