Today during worship service we were singing a song and the verse was "Hallelujah your love makes me sing." As I was singing it, I started to thank the Lord for the glimpses of love that I have seen of His love for me but I also started to cry out for a deeper revelation of His love for me.

I started to ask why can't I receive your love for me? I want to so bad, but why can't I? Someone on the worship team asked if there was anyone who feels like they are having a hard time receiving God's love and feel like they are unworthy to raise their hand. Of course, that was me so I raised my hand. Six months ago, I would have just stood there and not done anything even though I knew he was speaking to me but I feel like the Lord is asking me to do things and I need to be obedient, even though I'm terrified sometimes to do them. Tom said for those that raised their hand to step out of your seat and come down front and receive love from the Lord. Once again I was afraid, I was going to just stand there and not go, but I felt a pull like the Lord was drawing me forward. I had to be obedient, so I went.

The worship team was singing over us and someone was saying that God is singing over us, that He rejoices over us, He delights in us and is spinning like a top. I still couldn't receive it, I thought it's not for me God, how could you love me? Is this how you really see me? Show me, show me what you think of me.

As Sarah played the keyboard and I heard the beautiful sound of the notes, I heard Eric singing I love you, and all of a sudden I felt warm and I heard the Lord repeating you are beautiful, you're heart is beautiful. I had a vision of us dancing like a father/daughter dance and He was beaming with pride like a father would on a daughter's wedding day. I felt so much love, I felt so beautiful and wanted and I felt like he was saying I can be the Daddy you never had.

My love won't hurt you, don't compare my love to others in your past, My love is PERFECT! I got a vision of me as a little girl hugging her Daddy and it felt good, not bad, not dirty, it felt PERFECT! My Abba loves me unconditionally and always will. I really felt the love of the Lord and I felt it strong when someone was saying let the Lord bathe you in His love. At that moment I felt like I could just release whatever it was that I was holding onto and just soak in all of the Lord's love. It was like that warm sensation you get when you step into a jaccuzzi. I just felt so relaxed and at peace and I felt safe, secure, and loved.

Thank You Lord for Loving ME, thank you Lord for sacrificing Your ONLY Son to die for ME. I love You Abba!