How difficult it is to find one's strength in the midst of weakness. I am a strong woman, born of a line of strong women. Women who have lived through adversity with inner strength and faith. In her final days, my grandmother confessed to Jesus that there had been a time that she hadn't loved Him, but that she did now. When she spoke those words, she was speaking to someone only she could see. I honestly believe she was in the presence of our Lord who came to give her the strength she would need for her final journey home. As it was for my grandmother, Christ is there to grant us peace in our weakest moments. Times when we yearn for more even though we know all God has provided should be enough.

In my life, I have been blessed beyond belief; I have been given more than I could have ever asked for. I have known the joy of love, though it proved to not be enduring. I was gifted with a wonderful child in the latter years of my life, at a time when I had given up all dreams of ever being a mother. I have been gifted with a job that I honestly love; a job that pays well enough to offer my son and I a very comfortable life. Yet I have the audacity to yearn for more. Though I could care less for material possessions of this Earth, they mean little to me, I do long for things of sentimental and spiritual value. These longings lie buried deep within my heart, known only to God and myself, yet even as I write, the longing has moved away from me, the urgency of a few moments ago has passed. I have been granted strength once again through God's grace.

"…For when I am weak, then I am strong."

Through God's grace I realize that nothing I could ever hope or dream of could be as wonderful as the plans he has for me. His timing is perfect and I know in my heart that He will provide ALL I need. A perfect example of this can be seen in my church family. Though I have no earthly famiy nearby, God has provided me with my church family who is there for me whenever I need them.