1:5 And this is the message which we have heard from him and announce unto you, that God is light, and in him is no darkness at all. 1:6 If we say that we have fellowship with him and walk in the darkness, we lie, and do not the truth: 1:7 but if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship one with another, and the blood of Jesus his Son cleanseth us from all sin. 1:8 If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. 1:9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 1:10 If we say that we have not sinned, we make him a liar, and his word is not in us.
As I sat down at the library to read a few BLOGs and compare different translations of Psalms on the Bible Gateway thingy. A young mom sitting at a nearby terminal got asked to leave cause her infant decided to start crying. I don't know if it was a Single mom or a young married mom she was just a young mom who's infant decided to make noice as infants do.
Then I started to think about a time I was sitting out side a laundry mat in Eau Claire Wisconsin, I was waiting for the spin cycle to quit spinning, and drinking some wiskey and smoking a joint. I saw a bunch of tidy looking people going into a church in my rear view mirror. I remember saying to myself that God probably does love those people but I was a mess.
This was in the mid '80's and I did manage to kick the dope but I found myself in NA for quite some time feeling that the folks in NA would accept me but inside I was still dying. In 2000 having been clean for a litle over ten years, having had my ex wife leave me for a new Cyber boyfriend, in a new Cyber town I called every church in Terre Haute and said if you can explain this &*^%$^ Jesus thing to me I'd sure appreciate it. I guess I wasn't ready yet. But I started looking.
Come to find out having gone through a few different churches and there are quite a few variations on the Gospel. But I found a church that don't flinch to much at us Messy Christians. which is good because we Sinners can be a mess. But after a while it occured to me that wrecks like me are just what Jesus was looking for. Long story short if it werent for the love of my fellow Christians I'd still be a lot messier. |
