Today during church my side started hurting me again. It had gotten better until today and then as the service went on it started getting worse and even my left side started hurting.....it's on the side but in my back as well. Anyway while we were worshipping I was praying in the Spirit and a other people were too and a word of knowledge came from someone that said "today is your day for freedom, don't wait, don't wait, come boldly to the throne." at first i was like yes i want freedom how many times do i have to say it? you know i want freedom, what do you want me to do Lord? I don't know what to do? then my back started hurting more and i just started praying and asked him to show me and i had this vision of me carrying this heavy basket in front of me that had these straps that went over my shoulders and dug into my back.....right where my pain was....and in that basket i am carrying my heavy burdens.....like unforgiveness....i just started to weep......i started to cry out to Jesus and say i don't know how to let it go, help me let it go.....and then i heard Eric saying "i am you strong tower let me be your strength, trust in me!" it was amazing it was like the lord was talking to me through them in front of the whole church! i don't know if anyone else was being ministered too but i knew it was for me!

i started to say to the Lord i want to trust you Lord ....i trust you , i trust you, i trust you...i kept thinking of that verse.....Matthew 11:28-29 come to me all you who are weary and burdened and i will give you rest. take my yoke upon you and learn from me for i am humble in heart and you will find rest for your souls. for my yoke is easy and my burden is light.

then we started to sing that song "Like a child" ....i want to stand out in the rain......Lord I want you to rain down on me.......during this song i just prayed that the Lord would give me the strength and ability to trust in Him like a child does. Children are so trusting and so open and so honest and I want to be that way with my Father so I can trust Him with my burdens!

Amanda talked about how on the way to church she was thinking about a butterfly and how its first in a cocoon and there is transformation going on. Once that butterfly breaks out of that cacoon it takes flight and there is freedom! I can relate to this, I still feel like I'm in the cocoon but I know that God is transforming me into something beautiful and I will take flight!

When I got home I was flipping through a magazine and came across a description of the symbol of the butterfly (what a coincidence)! Symbolic of resurrection and eternal life, the butterfly emerging from its cocoon represents the resurrection of Christ from the tomb. Just as the butterfly comes forth with a new body, those who trust in Christ come forth with new life. The butterfly also represents flight, freedom and creative thinking.