Hi all:

Back in the '80s I was a lonely man trying to fill than big empty with Sex Drugs and Rock and Roll,  I met a lady that was to be the answer to all my problems. She was a Seventh Day Adventist.  Pretty soon I was a Seventh Day Adventist.  I was somehow going to be good enough to earn God's Favor.  I had a long, long list of things I needed to fix to become good enough for God.

I heard a lot about the Law and the 10 commandments, but the idea that God Loved me for who I was was foreign to me.  I tried looking at other churches.  To No Avail.  I had been pretty well indoctrinated in the fact that the SDA Church was the one true church and if I went any where else I would be turning my back on Christ.

I havent been in a SDA church for many years, As I feel that every time I go there I end up getting the cart before the horse.  But I find that to this day I'm mired in legalism.  Any way the lady I started off being so emphatuated with ended up married to her fiancee', but I noticed that while all my friends had grown up, had families.  I seemed to be cursed in this area.  I found myself going to Al Anon meetings, and I hooked up briefly with a lady.

You guessed it she was going to be the answer to loneliness.  When that didn't work out I went searching for an answer.  looking for the one "True Church".  I was sure such a thing existed.  And I found that there are lots of people who agree with me.  Long story short I was driving down the road feeling very frustrated.

I had the sun roof off.  I was screeming at God saying you tell me where I'm supposed to be.  I was just pretty much concerned about seeking God's blessing.  Material things that sort of stuff.

One thing led to another I ended up in AA and then NA met my future Ex-wife.  I stayed off the booze and dope for many years in fact I never picked up again.  But I kept looking for the God of my understanding and was afraid to consider that there actually was one true God.

( to be continued. )