For the past several weeks, I have been praying about what to do with my current schedule situation.  As it has been, I leave each morning at 8:00 AM to take Jonathan to school and then take Timothy to Pre K.  I get home about 8:45 and then leave at 9:15 to take Hannah to school for band.  Then I pick her back up at 10:30 and get home about 10:35.  Then I leave again about 11:10 to pick up Timothy from Pre K and get home about 11:45.  Then I work from 2:00 - 10:30.  I have done this for two months, and it has taken it's toll on all of us.  I've always homeschooled Hannah, and although she really is a good girl, it's impossible for her to keep up with her school work with this crazy schedule.  In addition to that, I have felt like I never get to spend any time with Timothy.  When we get home, we have lunch, and then I have to have some "down time/quiet time" for a little while before I begin working at 2:00, or I'll never be coherent enough to do my job late into the evening as I must.  Then there is my housework.  There's very little time in there to get things done around the house.  We've all been run ragged and don't know if we're coming and going.

The most logical thing seemed to be to take Timothy out of Pre K -- not only has it been a big time consumer (I spent over an hour in the car just taking him back and forth), but also a big gas guzzler as well!

One of the more difficult thing about being a single parent is having the soul responsibility of making major decisions like this.  I knew I needed lean on the Lord more than ever in making this decision.

I had always planned to homeschool him, but then began to doubt my own ability after he was diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome.

Anyway, I have been praying and begging God to show me what to do - even though I have felt in my heart that God would want me to keep Timothy home -- at least for now anyway -- after all, he is only 4 years old.  These years are so critical.  But then, I wasn't sure I could really handle him all day long -- 24/7.  He's a sweetheart, but also quite a handful.  It didn't make sense to keep him at home when I could get a break every morning.

So, early this morning, I was praying for God to show me TODAY what I was to do.   I read I Corinthians 2:10-16:

I realized that I already knew the answer.  God had shown me the answer all along.  However, being the doubting person that I am, I still asked God for more confirmation.

Moments later, Timothy woke up and came into the living room.  He had a little pouty face and climbed up in my lap and said, "Please Mommy, can I stay home? I just want to be with you."  Well, it doesn't get any more clearer than that, does it?

I had already talked with his teacher last week and explained that I was seriously considering taking him out.  She said she hated to see him go, but she could understand my situation. 

So, I let him stay home today.  It's going to definitely be a time of transition for him.  He thrives on routine and this is a major change in his routine.  We talked about doing school at home, and he instructed me exactly how to set it up - just like at his school.  He is thrilled with the idea of having school at home.  

I know in my heart I have made the right decision.  Timothy has been more relaxed today than I have seen in him a long time.  I'm sure I'll have days when I'll be pulling my hair out, but God is faithful, and will give me the strength and grace I need.