I come from an unsaved family, My Mom and Brother need to be prayed for salvation, but after praying and talking with trusted Brothers' and Sisters. it's obvious that I need to write out euligies for both my Mom and Dad (My Dad Passed away in '98). I still feel convicted to do everything I can to put on paper the things that I'm greatful for in both cases.
Eventually this will mean I have to take a few days to go to Ohio and visit Mom. To me this is a scary process. As relations between me and my brother a very strained. I don't know how to face that situation. I'd like to be some sort of a witness but my brother is still living with Mom at '47. He's still under the spell of dope and booze. In th past I've done the best I can to treat him with love, but I've tried to do this in the flesh and generally after 10 to 15 minutes of his attacks, I choose to defend myself. Then who knows what will happen.
I feel led by the spirit to face these things head on. as it were I've been putting things on my prayer list at church for Mom and Bruce to get saved. I seriously doubt that I'll go home and Mom and Bruce will fall on there knees and accept Christ, although you never know.
I just want to be able to deal with the provision to make the trip. I know I'm not really welcome to visit. Mom and I are on good terms, but she doesn't want me to see the condition of the house. My brother doesn't like being around me long as he don't feel comfortable drinking around me.
I know I showed Bruce how to drink and use dope once upon a time, But ever since I got Clean and Sober, he simply wouldn't have any thing to do with me.
I don't really want to go on whining about this current situation but if any one would remember me and my Mom and Brother in your prayers I'd sure apreciate it.
Dave |
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