Here it goes... here is my profile... who I am. I am first a child of God, a pearl of great price. A very
grateful child who everyday thanks my Lord and Savior for all His goodness,
mercy and grace! I don’t deserve the blessings He has graciously granted me,
but I am forever grateful!
Then I am a mom of 2 children I love very much! I am also a single woman, learning how to be happy and patient in my
singleness. Its taken me years to get to this place. I still have plenty of
lonely days; many days I wish I had a mate to share life with. Don’t get me
wrong, I am happy to be where I am, with the Lord as my best friend. My number
one prayers (yes plural) are for my children to know God so completely, so
intensely, that they cant help but feel His awesome love and power in their
very bones! The other part of my number one prayer is for a loving and kind husband,
hand picked by God, and is so on fire and in love with the Lord that he cant
help but shine for God and share his passion for the Lord with others. And the
last part of that prayer is, please Lord give me a mate that’s not only kind
and loving but encourages me in You, because I don’t want anything or anyone to
come between me and You Lord. Im so thankful the Lord has brought me to this
place, because it has not always been this way. I mentioned I am a pearl of
great price. We all know the price God paid for us to be His children, but do
you realize what it takes to become a pearl? It starts out as a grain of sand,
and with constant friction, or in our case trials, we become a pearl of great
value to the Lord. If we could only see ourselves as God sees us. We would
stand proudly and boldly for the Lord. Abuse affects many of us, and in many
different ways. I know from all the abuse Ive encountered that I never saw
myself as a pearl for the Lord. I have to remind myself often, I am someone
special, I am a child of the Almighty Living God, creator of the Universe and
beyond. That reminds me of Psalms 139, my
favorite Psalm. Even though I have experienced a lot of abuse from the time I
was very young, and through my marriage, I would not change anything. It has
taught me a lot about myself and about life, and brought me to this place with
the Lord. It has made me a very grateful, understanding and a better person. I
look at things much differently now. Its so freeing when you can see the glass
as ½ full instead of ½ empty, and know God is going to finish filling it, and
see a trial as an adventure instead of a dreadful hardship. Im probably looking
at surgery on my knee in the near future. The pain can be so intense at times.
It wakes me up at night. Sometimes I even cry. But God has some reason, something
He is trying to show me, teach me, or accomplish through it. I have to give it
to Him. I am His child and He loves me, and doesn’t mean this to harm me. I
have to trust in Him, walk by faith and not by sight, because He promises to
never leave me nor forsake me. This has caused me to be so thankful for the
days I have less pain and can walk easier. I don’t take things for granted as
much anymore.
As you can tell Im very passionate about things. I love
flowers, my garden, my kitty which God gave me, my darling little cottage house
(and I do mean little). I prayed and God gave me exactly what I prayed for. A
little cottage house with a great garden and close to work. That’s the
extremely short version of the story. God has provided when I was wondering how
I would manage. He once told me He would prove to me I could trust Him, (that’s
another God story), and He has shown me over and over. God knew I had a hard
time trusting because of my past, but He has proven to me that He will do
amazing things in my life if I keep in close fellowship with Him and let Him
handle things, let Him be in control. That’s hard for a co-dependent with sad
boundaries, who wants what she wants. I thank the Lord I am not the same person
anymore. God is faithful, never give up! He restores lives, I am living proof
of that. Many times in my life I was in such despair that I didn’t want to
live. God protected me, restored me and encouraged me.
My goal is to help and encourage others. I love life, I love
laughter, I love music, and I love to share the love of God. I am an
otter/retriever. For those of you who are wondering what in the world is she
talking about!?! Those are personality types. The otter is the fun loving,
cheerful type and the retriever is the easy going, loyal, faithful friend, who
loves to greet everyone. I also have some beaver in me. That’s the organized, plan
ahead, analytical person. Ive never been a leader personality but God is
working with me on that one. That’s an uncomfortable chair for me to sit in,
and Im sort of hiding from it. God is working His magic in me in His time. And I am working on being a more willing
servant. God is faithful to finish the work in us as we give every corner of
our lives to Him.
I could go on and on, telling you about my wonderful kids,
who are both great artists and how much I love them. And about how God gave me
my dream, my own health center. That’s another God story! But this would end up
a book if I kept on. So I will end here.
Thank you for your time and God bless you greatly! Debbie (:- )
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