Good day to all who read this. I just wanted to write something on this page since it has been a long time.

 Currently its 2:16am while i am writing this and I have been wondering what is God doing? No word, no message, no nothing for the past month or so and its scaring me. Why? I am a prophet of God and usually have a message but all of a sudden everthing stopped. No word, no message nothing. I have by God, the ability to see that He's watching me but just sitting, waiting...but for what? What is God waiting from me? I don't understand...I talk with Him no problem and conversate normally with no problems but in essence of Him using me? Nothing. Now i understand there is a time for everything and something i need to resolve in my life but i feel theres something more...isn't that what He is calling you too? You feel that tug and pull from God that He's calling out your NAME but can't seem to understand and ignore it but when you look its quiet? Yeah, like that. I fear God with my life and would give up my life for Him even I must but I feel at peace with God though...what is it?

 Its difficult for me since i talk with God everyday and then suddenly no answer? VERY UNCOMFORTABLE. I pray He helps me and teach me quickly what He wants but remember...He's calling your name as well.

I was thinking for some time now that God is an amazing God and Father but there was a question that He had asked me and has since then been going in circles in my mind...even in my sleep. Now, I always seem to hear the same answer "We love Him because He loved us first" or "Becuase He died on the cross for us." Now to me, thats ok but doesn't seem to fill in that question fully enough to my taste. I feel that there is another answer other than those above but what?

Yes He saved my family from divorce and yes He saved my life several times, but the question He had asked me seemed to fall more in a personal setting "Lemuel, why do you love Me?" was the question. Now I am still searching for the answer and wanting to fill the quesiton with a true answer, or in other words, a personal answer but I wanna ask you this quesiton as well "Why do YOU love God?"

I will be back to update the answer when I have it but until then...whats your answer? Feel free to comment. God bless everyone.

Its been quite some time I have written something but I think its time I continue to write again, cause I have been getting some requests to continue because of the great blessings many have received from reading my blogs. I will and that I promise but for now, here is something fresh out of the oven for ya...

I am going thorugh a extremely difficult time in my life that just keeps me wondering so many times about God and if He really has everything under control. I know its not nice to test God but...I did. Here is exactly how I said it "God, I had enough! Where is your power? Who are you? Are you really here and watching? Prove to me you are here!" I was leaving for practice to...guess where...church. But I got into the car and prior to me leaving, Gods soft, loving voice seemed to put mute on every other sound all around me somehow and this is what HE said "OK, you wanna see my power? You wanna see what I can do? Turn on the radio, press channel 4 and tune the station up 20 times"

Now, please bear in mind I am NOT making this up. I did exactly as told and this is what was said on the radio with a song "You know i will die for you, i only live for you...you are mines" Yeah...I know...I stayed looking at the radio for a very long while and could just not believe what I just heard! I was baffeled and scared at the same time. I knew I made God kinda...well...I'll use mad but still showed me mercy through it all. What will HE come up with next?

Point to be made, HE is always there it just we are human and needed to trust only HIM and that HE will not give us something that we cannot handle. Remember, the trials are for you to grow stronger in HIM and your calling. Its not for you to run away from it cause if you do, the wall will eventually come right back at a different time but your not alone...you have The Champion with you.

Sorry, I'm trying not to put more words online but God is making me put this so, to whomever it may concern, please continue to read:

THE TIME IS NOW. I AM MOVING CLOSER TO YOU BUT EVERYTIME I AM, THERE IS ONE TRYING TO DISTRACT YOU FROM WHAT I HAVE CALLED YOU TO BE. I HAVE GIVEN YOU THE TOOLS TO WORK WITH AND FIGHT, BUT WHY DO YOU LEAVE YOUR GUARD DOWN? HAVE I NOT TRAINED YOU TO BE A WARRIOR IN FAITH AND TRUTH? HAVE I NOT CALLED YOU MY CHOSEN, MY PEOPLE? DO YOU REALIZE WHAT POTENTIAL IS INSIDE OF YOU AND WHO IS PROTECTING YOU? WHY DO YOU FEAR OF WHAT TRAPS LAY AHEAD? DON'T YOU REALIZE THAT THOSE "TRAPS" I AM MAKING THE ENEMY CONFUSED AND THEY ARE FALLING IN THEIR OWN SNARE? REMEMBER THIS, WHATEVER WORD THAT COMES FROM OUT OF MY MOUTH, WILL NOT RETURN TO ME EMPTY. EVEN IF YOU ARE AT THE BRINK OF DEATH OR CHAOS, REMEMBER THAT I AM A SPECIALIST THAT CREATES ORDER AND LIFE. AS AN EXAMPLE FOR YOU TO UNDERSTAND, READ THE TIME THAT I CREATED THE WORLD IN GENESIS AND YOU WILL SEE MORE CLEARLY. BE OF GOOD CHEER AND PEACE, BE STILL. WHEN ALL SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE, LOOK TO THE ONE WHO MADE THE IMPOSSIBLE HIDE IN SHAME WHEN I APPEARED AND HAS DONE THE IMPOSSIBLE. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU FOREVER AND AM WAITING TO HEAR FROM YOU AGAIN.

Sorry, for this but as a lineage to prophets, I gotta do it or I'm in trouble. LOL. God bless you everyday of your life.

I have been taking the time lately to just stop and look for a moment whats in front of me...and I am quite astonished. I have seen people of all types of human race mold me to the person that I am today, though at the time seemed something quite unimportant. I realized that so much of my attitudes have fused with each person I have met. I wish I could give you an example and I do have one, but now is not the right time to explian or use.

I glanced at my past for a moment to see what God has done in my life, using people along the way...and I am in a slight state of awe (it should be more, but just for writers sake ok?). I have seen my friends grow up phisically and emotionally not just on their own, but with me along side them. I have realized what an impact I have done to them as they have done to me. One of them above many is trust. I cannot explian how wonderful this gift is among friends! I have been able to reveal certain thoughts without having the fear of thinking "what are they going to say?" That has shaped my character to another degree of certainty that only they can give. Others I can express my anger, to others my frustrations, and so on.

What I am trying to say is the following, if you think that God has not givin you a miracle in the most darkest times or tests in life, obviously other than God of course, who is usally there with you? Your friend. Take a moment and look back at the people who helped you (or not so helped, whatever you choose). Some of them are blessings while others may be wounds. However, it has made you grow to a man or woman of character. I love to use this verse to men and woman who deserve this: Proverbs 31

If you are thinking that God has not done a miracle in your life, look around you. Is not your surrondings proof of God? Not enough? Ok, how about your friends? Through thick and thin they are there and they are sometimes closer than a brother. Take a look in time and see where you stand and what molded you to the person you are today.

Lemuel