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Rodger's initial unemployment has run out.... we knew it was going to happen and we knew when it was going to happen. So of course...me being an "all my ducks in a row" kinda gal, I wanted Rodger to apply for the extension ahead of time, but unemployment doesn't work that way. We had to actually receive the very last check before he could apply for the extension. I didn't let it bug me... oh... it tried to bug me but I kept pushing it out of my head you know? So the last check comes and Rodger starts calling the unemployment office... over and over and over and over again.... but the phones were busy except for a recording telling us that if we cant speak to anyone we can go to the website... Ha! You can see where this is going cant' you? Rodger ended up applying online for the extension. Which meant we couldn't ask anyone any questions, we couldn't find out his chances of being approved or when the first check might come, or anything...it was very frustrating!
Then.... our air conditioner broke down...
What does that have to do with Rodger's unemployment? I asked myself that very thing... I'm almost as frustrated about the air conditioner as I am about not knowing about Rodger's unemployment. I could give you a list of reasons why we must have an air conditioner... very very hot weather.... extreme heat gives me migraines.... my parents will be visiting this week and both are elderly making a hot house very uncomfortable for them... those are good reasons but they aren't the REASON. The problem is I can't control when it gets fixed. I cant even call the repair man because we are renting, it's not up to me...so... I have to wait...all the while not having any idea whats happening or what will happen. I'm out of the loop so to speak.
Why is this such a problem? Why am I so bothered about it? If I knew all the particulars about the unemployment extension or the air conditioning repair would it change anything? Of course not. But it would give me the illusion that I could control something or change something... that by "keeping my eye on it" I could head off any snags that might pop up.... it would be up to me...in my hands.... under my control. In other words... there's no one that can do a better job of taking care of me (us) then....me....
Once I actually put it in those words, I was able to see what a "lie" that was. There are many times I'm sure God wants me to "control" things He gives me to control. So making an effort to handle things isn't wrong. But hasn't my Father already shown me that even when I have no idea of whats happening that He will choose whats best?
Wow... I feel like I'm on a steep learning curve.... and I kinda like it =) |
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- It's been ages since I have been on here but some amazing stuff has happened in the past several months that I need to share about. As you know my oldest daughter has had some legal troubles, my husband lost his job, and we ended up losing our home. But what you don't know is that all of these "terrible" things were not terrible at all. Let me explain...
- My daughter's legal trouble was a blessing... yes you heard me right... a blessing. She has so turned her life around since then. It was a real wake up call for her and an answer to prayer for us.
- And losing our home after Rodger lost his job was not so bad after all... I mean I would have preferred to keep it, but we were struggling so much with finances due to the above legal trouble and his job loss. We didn't really understand what a strain it was putting on us, but God did, and when He allowed us to lose it.... instead of feeling awful... we felt free. We were able to find a rental that allowed us to keep our little doggies, and the best thing was... it was a rental from one our own church members.
- Rodger is still out of work and has now ran out of his initial unemployment benefits, ( he has just applied for an extension and your prayers are appreciated) however, the fear I felt before is gone.... and thinking back on the recent past.. I have realized how faithful my God is. Of course I knew He was faithful in my head but now I KNOW He is faithful with all of me.
- So I'm asking the Lord to forgive me for
- dis-trusting Him
- dis-believing Him
- dis-respecting Him
Thank you so much for all your prayers =) |
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Dear Family,
Just wanted to let my wonderful MyChurch family know whats been going on...
Amanda Joy is still struggling with the separation of her and her husband, she doesnt think she is struggling, but she is. She's hanging with the wrong crowd....making unwise decisions, etc. It's hard knowing what to say to your adult child when you see they are going the wrong way... On the bright side....my Melody is doing wonderful and I pray that stays the same.
Rodger is now officially unemployed and, my hours at work have been cut back. We are struggling financially. This past month we were able to pay something on all our bills, except our mortgage. This next month we will not be able to pay our mortgage again. We are currently negotiating for a loan modification and contemplating bankruptcy.... And.... there is something else... I just can't get it off my mind...It's funny and I feel a little silly telling you all what it is, but... I'm afraid that if we lose our house and have to rent, I will have to give up my doggies ....isn't that insane? *sigh*... I just love my little critters.... At any rate....I don't see the light at the end of the tunnel, but I know God knows what's happening .
I know I havent been on MyChurch much. I get on to check my messages but am finding it hard to get enthusiastic about "surfing" the site as much as I used too. I know though that once this trial passes...or I get used to it ...haha... I'll have this wonderful place to come back too... full force :)
Please keep us in your prayers my friends....
Love
Robin
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"Rejoice in the Lord always, and again I say rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." (Phil 4:4-6)
Sometimes there are periods of time where we are just down in the dumps, and we kind of forget what happiness is. Maybe, you're going through something really rough, and it's hard to think about something else, or maybe you just can't seem to find anything to be happy about. Well, God gives us so much hope! Lately, I have been going through a period of doubt, and just being low, but God brought me so much joy through His word at church today. These verses in Philippians just stood out to me. No matter what our trials and tribulations… there is a reason for rejoicing! That is through Christ.
A lot of times people go around searching for happiness because that’s what they long for. As Christians, we too, often seek happiness, as a sign that everything is well in our lives. But, God wants us to seek something higher. Joy! You see, happiness is based on feelings, and they come and go. Joy is based on Jesus and He will never leave you. So no matter what you are going through, or no matter how un HAPPY you may feel, remember that as God's special child He wants you to have JOY! Joy is so much deeper than happiness, because it's being content despite your circumstances.
John 15:9- Jesus says, "As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. If you obey my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have obeyed my Father’s commands and remain in His love. I have told you this, so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete.”
Complete Joy!!! The word Joy does mean happiness, but also, delight and gladness; a source of pleasure. I don't hear the word joy used often in conversations. I hear the word joy used in church or at Christmas (sometimes as a name *wink*). But Jesus didn’t say that we could only experience joy at Christmas or when we go to church. Joy is ours for all times. We should have joy in our hearts because we have God's love in our hearts. I think one of the best Christmas Carols ever sums up what joy should mean to us, but not just for Christmas or on Sundays, but for every day.
“Joy to the World, The Lord has come!
Let earth receive her King!
Let every heart prepare Him room!
Let Heaven and Nature sing!”
Joy came to the world when Jesus was born. He is our Lord. Let the earth receive her King. Praise Him and let all in Heaven and on earth sing his praise. Joy to the world through Jesus Christ.
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